Wah. I went for Lenten Vigil at SVDP on Friday. I came to church at 5 PM to set up the backdrop. I had to tie the strings to keep the backdrop up. And the stupid windows at the balcony served only to get in my way. Then we had rehearsals all the way till ten thirty. We started the passion play at twelve. I acted as the High Priest and Chief Priest. I had a black costume and a gold cape. It was quite confusing on when to put on my gold cape. So I remembered it as 'Don't Put one, Put on, Don't Put on, Put On, Don't put on'. I think that did the trick. I figured I did quite an okay job. After the play, we had stations of the cross. I acted as Simon. After stations we went back to the room to stone. Then exco decided to have their meeting. I got chased out. As usual. So Julius asked me to the main chuch where they were having Taize. It's quite cool afterall, just like how Matthew described it. After that they had washing of feet. We had our chairman Iggy to wash our feet. I hope he didn't find my feet too smelly, considered I was walking around the church barefoot during the acts. The next thing was reflection. Then they had this video of this guy. When the guy on the screen acts like Jesus, He seems to be Jesus himself. When he acts as Peter, or whatever, he seems to be them. He does this for 3 hours without taking a drink. He's good. The show was very shocking. It certainly got me thinking. We had breakfast at 5 am. I just drank milo. Then rosary followed by mass was at 6.30. Actually I didn't really feel that drained. I feel like I slept my normal hours. During the reflection and video, I really thought for a long time. I was thinking whether Jesus could have escaped carrying his cross, which let me to think, whether I can escape carrying my cross. My cross for now happens to be trying to run Maris Stella High's very ramshackle Legion of Mary. With Dominic in the army now, It's time for me to take over. But I've been doing a lot even when he was still around. He did a lot too. We all did a lot. I'm tired. I wonder how is his army life. He went in on Friday. Without him around I feel kind of lost. And I have no idea how to recruit people to join us. Heck, I don't even know why we are here in the first place. We are supposed to evangelise, spread the word of God. But there isn't much we can do in Maris Stella. At least not that I know of. But I was thinking, even though we have so much trouble after so many years, we haven't needn't to shut down. I think God is really helping us. Why else can we survive for so long? I guess the best thing to do now is to pray more and to leave it to God. In the meantime we'll do what we can. I think the best part of the vigil was near the end of Mass. Felix was grinning happily to me, so i smiled back at him. Despite being deprived of sleep, he still cheerful. This is something I can learn from. In any case I went back at 745, took a shower, ate some more food and medicine, then slept till 130 pm.