27 November 2004 Woke up at bloody 8 AM. Managed to drag myself out of bed by 8.30 AM. Went to meet Joshua and went to church. My brother was with me. Julius and Agnes were getting married. Wah, after 7 years. That's a very long time. Things happen real fast in one decade. You know, this is the first time I've ever been to a Catholic wedding. Yeah, so I'm feeling very happy for them. I wonder if I'll ever get a chance to stand in front of the altar and wait for my beautiful lady to come. Or maybe I will be the man who stands behind the altar. I don't know. Let's see what happens in the next decade. Haha, Julius was damn funny. He was panicking and he misread the vow and dropped the ring. I think Agnes was also panicking, trying to say the vow in one breath. But anyway, the music was quite well done. Ah, the lunch reception was fantastic. I left to go to Angela's house to do our preparation for the camp. Time flies man. The retreat starts on Wednesday. I wonder how it will be like. I have never planned the year end retreat before, so that makes this my first time. So we prepared the nametags and warm fuzzy mailboxes for the campers. Yeah. Kept falling asleep in the bus today. I'm tired. And I have -$0.83 in my EZ link card. Damn great. I'm kind of relieved to pass all my modules. Some of my classmates did not have this good fortune. Well, Good luck fellas... School of Mobile Suit Warfare is playing "Monfort Military Band - Princess Mononoke" Brought to you by iTunes.

Muahahaha!! I managed to pass all my papers! Thank You God!! In order of Merit Communication skills and technical writing :A Introduction to molecular biotechnology :B+ Microbiology A :B Japanese :C Physical Chemistry :D Inorganic Chemistry :D Mathematics for Life Sciences :D It's going to be damn hard if i'm ever going to make it to uni. I better sleep now. There's legion meeting later.

For those who are going to take their results, you might need this. Holy Saint Jude, Apostle and Martyr, Great in virtue and rich in miracles, Near kinsman of Jesus Christ, Faithful intercessor of all Who invoke your special patronage in time of need. To you I have recourse from the depths of my heart And humbly beg to whom God has given such great power To come to my assistance. Help me in my present and urgent petition (pray for intention here for a while), In return I promise to make your name known And cause you to be invoked. 3 Our Fathers 3 Hail Marys 3 Glory Be to the Father Saint Jude pray for us And all who invoke your aid. Humbly in need of your intercession, Amen. "You must promise to publish this prayer when your prayer is answered." St Jude is the saint for desperate causes. Good luck! Anyway, today went to school for the old folks party. Damn, I realise that speaking dialect is damn important. Too bad I never grew up speaking it. Which is probably one reason why I keep away from relatives and old people. Sad. Poor English educated Ian. Went to Kar Shing's house after that. But I had to meet Leslie in Toa Payoh then go all the way to Joo Seng. I'm kind of surprised that this guy remembered me. I never really talked to him much. Hmm. So, Hai Kiat was there, Leslie was there and this 2nd Year IT student from NYP. Hmm.. Supposed to play basketball, but it was raining, and I wanted to go for mass at IHM. So I went to IHM for daily mass. They are having their confirmation camp now. My cousin was supposed to be there but I didn't see him anywhere. Last Sunday when I asked him what confirmation meant to him, he could not answer me. I asked him why he went to cathecism classes, he could not answer me. Will continue to pray for him I guess. School of Mobile Suit Warfare is playing "Mr Children - Tenohira" Brought to you by iTunes. kisu shinagara tsuba wo haite nameru tsumori ga kamitsuite kiseta tsumori ga hikisaite mata ai motomeru hitotsu ni naranakute ii yo mitomeaeba sore de ii yo sore dake ga bokura no mae no kurayami wo yasashiku chirashite hikari wo furashite ataetekureru Spit while kissing meant to lick but bit meant to put it on you but tore it up and again, seek love we don't need to be one if we accept one another that's enough That will give us the light that will rain down gently, and scatter the darkness before us.

Thanks to Cheryl Woo's great idea, i managed to fill up one hour. Thanks Cheryl!! And when I thought all my problems were over, another one appeared. I lost this piece of paper with some important stuff for my program. Damn it, now I have to redo it again. So I was busy panicking about it and as a result I was late for precamp. Precamp was at St Michael's church. It was quite okay. I think everybody liked my groups' programs. Phew, I thought I was going to get scolded.. Basically we just ran through all the programs and edited them. We also tested the games. The last night we had praying over. I was happy to know that I was being appreciated for my work. And for some reason after this precamp, this vocation thing is bugging me.Me? Become a priest? Dunno leh...

Damn technology, always fails on you whenever you need it. Lost a bloody file and now my team people have to type it again. Damn it... I still haven't finished my camp program. How the hell am I supposed to fill up an hour!? I have no more ideas already.. Robin and Pet are going to kill me this evening. And I haven't showered yet. Ah, God save me!! Did I forget to mention that my bloody asthma is acting up again?

Tuesday and Wednesday and Thursday got PALS camp. Tuesday we had wet games. And it was raining. -_-" Ok....So we had wet games in the rain. Was quite fun. I got spashed by buckets of water as forfeits. Wednesday we had a treasure hunt at Orchard. Wah lao eh whole day walk around, never even stop for lunch. I ate like mad during dinner. Yah. School of Mobile Suit Warfare is playing "L'Arc en Ciel - Hitomi no Jyuunin" Brought to you by iTunes. soba ni ite zutto kimi no egao wo mitsumeteitai utsuriyuku shunkan wo sono hitomi ni sundeitai dokomademo odayaka na shikisai ni irodorareta hitotsu no fuukeiga no naka yorisou you ni toki wo tomete hoshii eien ni soba ni ite zutto kimi no egao wo mitsumeteitai utsuriyuku shunkan wo sono hitomi ni sundeitai itsunohika azayaka na kisetsu he to tsuredasetara yuki no you ni sora ni saku hana no moto he ... hana no moto he... I want to stay here watching you smile forever I want to live each changing moment in your eyes, in that one scene forever colored in gentle hues to bring us close together, I want to stop time forever. I want to stay here watching you smile forever I want to live each changing moment in your eyes, If one day I could bring you to a serene season to the flowers blooming in the sky like snowflakes. ...to the flowers

Tuesday I went to look for Generals at Serangoon Shopping Centre. The uncle says stock comes in at 2pm. So I went to Heartland Mall to walk around before coming back at 2. The man says stock comes in on Wednesday. On Wednesday, I went to visit the Senoko Incinerator with the Geo Council. Apparently they put my name on their members roll. Which means I have 3 CCAs now. Lol. Ok, so I go back to the shop at 5 something PM. They man smiles and says that stock comes in on Friday. Shit!!!! Damn Electronic Arts......taking so long to deliver...I'll call the uncle before going down on Friday. So I went for dinner at Chomp Chomp with Joshua and Donovan Foo and their classmate. Wah piang eh, ate quite a lot. Went to Joshua's place after that to watch TV. Hmm..

Went for band outing at sentosa in the morning. It was quite fun, though for some reason my legs started bleeding while I was kayaking. Must be the mosquitoes or the fiberglass. And my thumbs keep getting abrasions from the side of the kayak! Damn, my kayaking is rusty. Oh, then Zhongxi and another 2 guys and I went to play frisbee in the water. 3 of them almost lost their spectacles and we spent lots of time looking for the glasses. Damn funny...We were using our feet to feel the seabed.. Well I didn't stay for too long, and I left at 3.30 pm like that. Went to meet Kellina and Clare AGAIN for another meeting. Didn't finish much work and ended up having a net meeting, which explains why I'm still awake now. Ah, I decided not to take the job, upon my parents advice. It is very sinful to con others of their hardearned money. Conning = Stealing. And what's that rule again? Thou shall not steal. Ok, I won't be awake for long now! God, let me sleep now.

Yay!!!! Bloody exams are over!! (I hope no need to take supp papers.) At fricking last, the day I've been waiting for. Just now's microbiology was damn easy, hopefully I won't get pulled down by practical too much. I hope I can get an A. Muahahahha!! Went to Sim Lim Square with Dominic Bung and Yam Meng. We searched the whole building for C&C Generals Zero Hour standalone CD but cannot find at all!! Wah lao eh. Then they were selling the original CD and the expansion set for $69.90. A nicer way of writing $70.00. =P I've got to find those CDs cheaply soon....My army needs me...Lol. Went to see Shark Tale with Joshua at PS. It's a nice show. Met his friend who was working as a surveyor. So I asked him about the job. $40 per successful survey. So good ah? Wait long ah...Apparently this is some kind of timeshare scheme. The guy who did the survey has to go for a timeshare talk which will probably take damn long. If he leaves halfway you don't get your $40. Everybody knows timeshare is a con jack rip off. I'm having second thoughts about taking this job. Anyway, went for carolling after that. Ate dinner quite late. And here I am blogging. Wah lan eh, damn tired ah. I slept at 3.30 am. I think I go sleep now. Tomorrow got band outing. School of Mobile Suit Warfare is playing "Dir En Grey - Drain Away" Brought to you by iTunes. Oshibana natsukashimi ha omoide ni hitaru yuuzora yubiori kazoeteita kimi ni au hi wo matsu ano koro he sora aokiyoki jidai no naka de kowareta yume to kanashikikana hateshinaki zaishou koe ha naki ichiya no shun! the pressed flower recalls memories in the evening sky to that time, when I would count on my fingers, the days until we met. in the good ol' days of clear blue skies the broken dream and to my sorrow, the endless evidence of my crime, one night voiceless is Spring.

1 November, All Saints Day The Holy Gospel according to Matthew (5: 1 -12) When Jesus saw the crowds, he went up the mountain,and after he had sat down, his disciples came to him. He began to teach them, saying: "Blessed are the poor in spirit,for theirs is the Kingdom of heaven. Blessed are they who mourn,for they will be comforted. Blessed are the meek,for they will inherit the land. Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for righteousness,for they will be satisfied. Blessed are the merciful,for they will be shown mercy. Blessed are the clean of heart,for they will see God. Blessed are the peacemakers,for they will be called children of God. Blessed are they who are persecuted for the sake of righteousness,for theirs is the Kingdom of heaven. Blessed are you when they insult you and persecute youand utter every kind of evil against you falsely because of me. Rejoice and be glad,for your reward will be great in heaven." The Gospel of the Lord. Yesterday was All Saints Day and I went for 6pm mass with my family. So what about saints? They are God's people who are in heaven now. Can we ever become saints? I think we can, though it would be very difficult. Hey, nobody said it was easy. Not in a corrupted world like this. But we can still try, no? So let's keep asking for the intercession of our Blessed Mother and all the Saints, that we will always do God's will. Inorganic Chemistry was quite okay. I managed to do most of them, though I think I lost a lot of marks. I didn't study the Contact Process at all. Damn. And I stayed up till 1.30 Am to study ah. Rats!! I came back at 12 noon, slacked, ate lunch at 2pm. Went to sleep, then went for mass at 6pm. Yesterday very slack, later must wake up earlier to do my maths. Wah lao eh, wednesday is maths, and I don't know shit about maths. But for the grace of God, here goes nothing..